On My Own

I've been knocked down, mistreated, and abused.
I've been lied to, deceived to, and refused.
I've been told that I'm never gonna make it on my own.
But I hope that one day I'll find a way to go.

So I'll look for the strength inside.
And pray that this pain doesn't take over my life.
It's something I gotta do for myself.
I can't take anybody else's help.

Don't you try to save me.
I know this won't be easy.
I must learn it the hard way.
Make good out of my mistakes.
Don't you try change me.
Only I can make the best of things.
A time for me to reflect my life.
Make things work the right way this time.

I'm so ashamed of everything I put myself through.
My head spins and I've never felt more confused.
I run and hide all the pain that's eating me alive.
Broken inside. I feel like I'm running out of time.

So I'll try to change my ways.
Learn from all my hard nights and days.
I know I've got to rescue myself.
I can't take anybody else's help.

Don't you try to save me.
It's my fault I'm going crazy.
More damaged than I thought I'd ever be.
Lost so long. I'm in too deep.
Don't you try to change me.
I'm watching all my crashing dreams.
Poisoning my body and my mind.
Fight away all the tears I cry.

I'm so sorry for hurting you. If I could change the past.
I'd love you more than you'd ever know and I would make it last.
I cherish you for your innocence. I would fail you never again.
But I've failed myself and nobody else can make it go away.

Don't you try to save me.
I'm trying to make myself at ease.
Can't erase the wrongs I can't make right.
Can't sorrow over a burnt out light.
Don't you try to change me.
I'll better my life in my own way.
Reminisce the things that make me cold.
Rid my darkness all on my own.

Evil Inside

Heart race, speed of light.
This demon's controlling my mind.
He's telling me inside.
That it is time to say good bye.
I'm feeling weak. I'm feeling scared.
I see the dark, I sense it there.
It could be more than I could bare.
I wonder if they'd even care.
Maybe I should let it go.
Rid myself of what I know.
Watch it take away my soul.
Destroy what I could be and more.
Broken pieces, burnt out flames.
Ashes falling, pouring rain.
Empty heart and so much pain.
Should it have the final say?
Fight its power, must stay strong,
Hold onto what I've loved so long.
Cherish it before it's gone.
Chase away its evil wrongs.
Growing fast, but I won't quit it.
My heart's too strong, I'm over it.
Stop you now, before you finish.
No, my life will not diminish.

Fears

Can't you see?
I'm stuck here in misery.
My mind is killing me.
Somebody save what's left of these dreams.
I'm mistaken.
There's nothing left, everything's dated.
I feel hated.
By the monsters inside my soul, trying to take it.
So many think it's cool.
No one really ever knew.
That this spirit is not true.
Such a fool.
Scream it loud.
What are these fears really about?
I see doubt.
I'm the one blocking my way out.
Time will tell.
I'll rewalk the path I know so well.
Just where I fell,
And everything crashed in a place like Hell.
Feeling afraid.
Like it's all the same, nothing can ever change.
So let's run away.
Not even time will save me from this hidden place.